Friday, February 26, 2010
I wish someone can tell why?
12:19 AM
I am so jealous!
The more I see the more I look.
those pictures.
there are so many.
Why?
My head is filled with what ifs?
what if he likes them
What if he will
What if
AHHHHH!!!
The more what if i think of , the more troubled I get.
why I am doing this?
I have no idea!!
I wish I can not do this.
Why can I just leave his life alone!
I am so annoying.
what am I doing?
I have no idea.
maybe I still cannot get my senses rite.
that he dun belong to me or with me.
Dear Heavenly Father,
I prayed that you will help me. Cleanse me from jealousy and anger. Cleanse my mind and my brain. cleanse me that I will never sin again. I pray that u purify me once more. please Lord. I begged for your forgiveness.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
I wish someone can tell why?
12:44 AM
I feel there is no longer any reason to like you!
i have no idea why I feel this way
Sometimes i wonder whether we are living in the same world.
Now that we are busy with our own different things
I feel so inferior.
yeah u are in JC and all
And here I am heading to a poly
Looking at you in the uniform is awesome
but it makes me sad
knowing that you are in a JC means there are so many girls
OH MAN
yes I am jealous
Who knows when you will start liking those girls
yeah i am selfish
Why do I feel so inferior??
In the past, You used to make me confident n complete n perfect
but now,
you make me so useless n dumb
What happen?
Can someone tell me?
Maybe its true
we lost the connection.
maybe I was just the only one messing my own feelings
maybe it is just me liking you
and you are as always a blur sotong in your own bubble.
It is not like I want it
You just seem so
I dunno
Maybe it is my own wishful thinking, but seriously I dun mind.
