Saturday, March 21, 2009
FALSE HOPE.
1:52 AM
TODAY was AWESOME
had the IGNITE CONCERT!!
It was GREAT!!
I REALLY SCREAMED my lungs and HEART out!
God heals
DO SOMETHING!!
is what i am planning to do!!
HHAHAHHA
My legs, hands, fingers, arms and toes
HURT for all the JUMPING and GOING CRAZY
But my hunger is still THERE
I HUNGER FOR MORE!!
I am sick and tired of everything
if u really hate me that much
then go on hating me
I will TRY my very best not to CARE
U dun have to be so COLD rite?
I really dun UNDERSTAND?
What is worst?
STRANGERS
It seems like that.
All I wish is a friendship.
I dun ask for anything more.
I think i DUN want to.
BUT are u making things so difficult?
why cant u just fulfill this SIMPLE wish of MINE
I hate being hang at some POINT
where u have no idea what is going on?
It will make my little BRAIN think alot
But you just love doing that to me
maybe it is unknowingly
BUT it is very ARGH
you are like a tore page of a fairytale storybook.
so PERFECT and COMPLETE
Yet u are tore my ideal dreams and ENDINGs
I thought u were different.
But why?
Are u just so HAPPY disappointing me
AGAIN and AGAIN?
Why must you do that?
Am I that hard*
Why must you be so COLD?
I tried my BEST to *so INTERESTING and HAPPY
I tried my BEST.
But you are just SLAPPING my face
and saying it is not ENOUGH
I took my CHANCES.
I tried my BEST.
I lower my HOPE.
I wish for the BEST.
You make me SMILE.
But you make me FROWN.
I asked EVERYTHING I can.
You only exist in FAIRYTALES
Which do not even EXIST.
You are PERFECT in my eyes
But I seem to be like NOTHING to you
not EVEN a FRIEND
just a STRANGER
not even a HAHAHA or (:
just BLANK
do u know how much I hate BLANKS?
My brain will always fill in the BLANKS for me
Stop making me HAPPY for nothing
FALSE HOPE
WHY?
that stare
I finally make up my mind
I am going to end THIS
I will not hold back like i always do
I will not say I cant BEAR to
Cause now.
I can BEAR.
I want to let YOU go.
Erase you from ME
Just GO AWAY
