Thursday, January 15, 2009
Jealousy.
3:25 PM
I am JEALOUS!
WOW!!
It's terrible.
everything i see reminds me of IT!!
But I cant stop it!!!
I think it will get worst!!
NOT GOOD!
every time I look at them
I will feel so IGNORED
Why ain't I in it?
WHY?
I dun want to be left out
I dun want to be left behind
I dun want to be left alone
I cant do things alone
PLEASE.
I am already left behind for many things
dun make it worst for me
I know every one wants me to hold one
succeed
and not give up!!
I want to!!
I just want to go like any other person
I just want to worship and praise
why is all this so different for me?
why cant I be like the others
so free in choosing what they want
I dun want anything else
I just want one thing
Make me normal
please make me normal
i dun wan to be different
i want to be free
every thing, every person reminds me
of what I hate
it makes me dislike myself
my life
I dun want to do that
who does?
Yes. I still believe that one day they will be saved
but at the same time
I want to just be the same
be normal
do wat others do
feel wat others feel
dun just leave me there
i dun want to wait so long
i belong here
please bring me along
i know i didn't get to go for it
but please
give me other options
just bring me along
dun just dump me there to rot
please
I dun wan to WAIT!
I want to be like other person
take watever they take
do watever they do
even if I am not there half the time
make me normal
I dun want to MISS any single bit of anything
I know I am not suppose to compare but still!!
I just dun want to miss anything!!!
I will try my best to make it!!
OKAY!!!
Let me blog about yesterday first!
SCHOOL as usual....
then went to meet EZZAH
to go for GUIDES CCA AUDITION!!
We were allowed to just peek in and ask some QUESTIONS
YEAH!!
FUN!!
but very tired
went for tuition
super sleepy!!
almost sleep
or i think i did sleep!
hahaha
TODAY is the most tiring day of the WEEK!!
cause have six subjects
and they drives me NUTS!!
hahahaha
SUPER TIRED!!
TO add on to whatever I have!!!!
my nose is running for Olympics
and my throat is a construction worker
specialized in sawing
CRAP!
i want to sleep!!
where's my ZZZZZ monster?
hhaha
