Thursday, November 20, 2008
Heart Breaking!!!
2:05 PM
It is really HEART breaking!!
I dunno wat!!
My heart just dun want to tell me!!
I still cannot imagine!
I cried all the way home!!!
embarrassing!!
I know tat when I think of u, u will be there
especially at the food court!!
I never ever expect u to be there!!
but u appear!
Why can't I open up!!
Why I am keeping everything inside!
maybe that's why I will cry that much!!
Is hating u making me love u more!!!
i am tired!
very tired of waiting and comforting myself
all the time!!!
I dun wan to pretend anymore!!!
I must stop myself from imagining
u are different from my imagination!!
far from it!!!
haha
Sometimes crying out is a good way to distress
I always believe that if that someone is causing me too much sadness
i must give him up!!
But this time
it is HARD!!
I dunno why I cannot do it!!!!
OKay!
Let's talk about yesterday!!
hahahahaha
I had my tuition brought early!
so that I can go church!!
hahahaha
My tuition was suppose to end at 5.30
yet it ended at 4.30!
so I went to church SUPPER early!!
WALK aroung BORDERS for like an hour!!!
And collected my Mum's jeans ans came back to CHURCH!
and that LIPING and YOGES still have not reached!!
HANG around!!
till they come!!
went down to the basement foodcourt!!
TO MAKAN!!
yay!!
YUMYUM!!
then went for service!!!
although it feels WEIRD
cause i never worship for quite long!!
I feel bad!!
I just GAVE my ALL!
hahahaha
then when SERVICE ended!!
I HAD TO GO BACK HOME ALONE!!!
ALONE!!
nevermind!!
It is not even the FIRST TIME!!
hahahahaahaha
AND I miss JOY!!!!!
Joy faster COME back form MALAYSIA!!!!!!
ahh!!
I need to pour my HEART out to U!!!
I am going to BURST any time!!
I MUST STOP IMAGINING!!!
and here I am!
BLOGGING today!
Since like AGES!!
hahaha
Must do my TAWG!!
never do for AGES!
feel very guilty!!!
hhahahaha
yay!!!
hahahaahhahahah
Still mending my heart!!
God
I know u know me inside out!
heal me!
If he is not the one,
tell me God!!
Dun let him hurt me more!!!
I will obey and listen to your every word!
Amen.
