Thursday, March 18, 2010
Moved to
12:39 PM
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Friday, February 26, 2010
I wish someone can tell why?
12:19 AM
I am so jealous!
The more I see the more I look.
those pictures.
there are so many.
Why?
My head is filled with what ifs?
what if he likes them
What if he will
What if
AHHHHH!!!
The more what if i think of , the more troubled I get.
why I am doing this?
I have no idea!!
I wish I can not do this.
Why can I just leave his life alone!
I am so annoying.
what am I doing?
I have no idea.
maybe I still cannot get my senses rite.
that he dun belong to me or with me.
Dear Heavenly Father,
I prayed that you will help me. Cleanse me from jealousy and anger. Cleanse my mind and my brain. cleanse me that I will never sin again. I pray that u purify me once more. please Lord. I begged for your forgiveness.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
I wish someone can tell why?
12:44 AM
I feel there is no longer any reason to like you!
i have no idea why I feel this way
Sometimes i wonder whether we are living in the same world.
Now that we are busy with our own different things
I feel so inferior.
yeah u are in JC and all
And here I am heading to a poly
Looking at you in the uniform is awesome
but it makes me sad
knowing that you are in a JC means there are so many girls
OH MAN
yes I am jealous
Who knows when you will start liking those girls
yeah i am selfish
Why do I feel so inferior??
In the past, You used to make me confident n complete n perfect
but now,
you make me so useless n dumb
What happen?
Can someone tell me?
Maybe its true
we lost the connection.
maybe I was just the only one messing my own feelings
maybe it is just me liking you
and you are as always a blur sotong in your own bubble.
It is not like I want it
You just seem so
I dunno
Maybe it is my own wishful thinking, but seriously I dun mind.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Burning up for HIM
11:03 PM
Candles is the nicest things to see.
Anyway, school is starting for those sec schools peeps.
It's quite saddening to see them go back to the school mood.
Some of them look so sad n some still rushing for work
I am so glad I have no school tomorrow
Only HAVE WORK!!
My work is so repetitive, that it can be quite boring, then I will always try ways n means to make it fun like throwing in some dumb way.
Or maybe compete with myself to make a EVEN nicer looking cookie or sth.
Anyway, I know I have not been blogging.
Let me start from WATCH NIGHT SERVICE
It was awesome
although I was SUPER TIRED cause I work in the morning, slept for 4plus hrs only.
I was REALLY dying by the end of WORK
But I must thank God for giving me His strength to survive the whole 6 hrs till 6AM
I was really dying after tat.
I was quite lucky that I didnt get gastric, I dun think i eat anything leh
Yesterday was our first youth service of the year.
I did alot of stuff
Worship was great!
the most IMPT is the 2 ppl I wanna SAVE
This time, I am not going to let my pride stop me
cause my pride is God's
i must do his will THIS TIME
Sunday service was AWESOME too!!
The speaker is very inspirational man!!
she is like a role model!!
Cause she is a female speaker
mostly is male speaker
For this year, I dun even wanna miss one day of TAWG or prayer
EVERYDAY of the year I will do my TAWG n PRAYER
its like new year resolution!!
HAHAHA
I'm hungry!!
HAHAHA Shall go grab some ICE CREAM!!(:
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
My best day of my life
12:30 AM
I wish you knew.
that i think of you , whether you are or not
I always think back the short time we had only each other
when we cant hide from one another.
when we show our true self
When I feel so relieved by your side
knowing that I dun have the hide the truth from you
I know you dont know
but It doesnt matter
I remembered your call
guessing that I am still at home
meeting you at the MRT
seeing what you wear
it really melted my heart
The train trip when you wake me up when I AM SLEEPING
I remembered the cab we shared
OHHHHH I think you havent pay me yet
When we were rushing our food.
When I was trying to explain the place to the taxi driver
I couldnt pronounce the place
I felt so embarrassed then
I GRABBED out my handy street directory
I think you were busy eating your food
getting out of the cab
started raining
We were busy finding the location
realised we got down at the wrong place
My mummy was teasing me about you
that's why I didnt wan to show you the msg anyway.
It will reveal everything.
Walking to find the location
eating my sweet
finally finding the place
my shirt have a new design of spots
entered the place
Filled up the forms
heard the first time you said papa
sounds funny
hahaha
We felt scared of course
I knew you were scared although you said you are not
It was so OBVIOUS in your actions
After we finished what we came so far to do
the relief in our faces
waiting at the bus stop
in the train seeing everyone staring at us
standing close
getting out the TRAIN
the time we are trying to start a conversation at the same time
n we paused thinking who should continue
the bus trip back home
when my hands accidentally hit yours
This was the only time i get to sit next to you
that was the only time i feel you so close
I know it will be my last time too
I know I will never have the chance ever again
I never knew i actually will have this chance to spend that day with you
I really wish i can show my feelings
but I have to hide it
I wish you can understand that
This are my true thoughts
I never hide
i know you will never read this, so I can finally pour it out
it is so tiring trying to keep it in
i feel so relieved that i finally can let it out
I think I will never be able to tell you the truth
but I will always think of you
even after my work i will walk to see that lighted window
i am happy cause even though I can never tell the truth
I can at least know you are there near me
When you are near me
When you are here I see all that I am made of
And all that I have
When you are near
Whenever I want to think back that day,
i can at least read this post
because it's ALL about you
that day with you was the BEST day of my life.
